sunlight comes in through an old window,
sparrows sing in the mango trees outside.
although it is a bright day, it’s dark for me-
with unexplainable feelings deep inside.
drawers are open, walls are bare.
summer breeze is hot, secrets float in.
i cry myself to sleep, who cares?
no one, really- they do not know.
drawings and drafts are torn to pieces,
thrown carelessly on the dirty floor.
last night there was love, laughter, and kisses,
but all of that i left behind.
the bed is messy, pillow wet with tears
it still smells of you, sweet and warm.
i have too many secrets, and still more fears
for today and tomorrow, and what is to come.
if a cat can meow, a meow can cat.
and I don’t know what I’m wondering at.
-Stevie, my sister.
make a wish
at the lunar eclipse.
you will never know
what awaits in the future.
make a wish
at falling stars.
no matter where you are,
you are always more than what you think.
make a wish
if you can, everyday.
maybe you’ll see the people you miss
and say more things you wanted to say.
I told myself so many times not to touch the light
For fear of losing what I had with me.
But when I approached the flame, bright,
I finally saw what I wanted to see.
All my memories faded into the white light
All those unforgettable tales and fights.
They were all gone, and all that was left was you
And I thought, “Where is this going to?”
I told myself not to tell all the things I wanted to say
Because I was scared and I didn’t want to see who I thought I was.
But, as a thought came to me, I told them anyway
And out came the real me, without any fuss.
All my emotions flowed out as words
Words untold for so many years
They flew out of me as birds,
Birds in the form of my unshed tears.
I used to tell myself I couldn’t be who i was in front of them
And that I couldn’t do it anyway.
But here I am, laughing again,
Saying all the things I wanted to say.
No one is walking in the streets anymore
No smiles can be seen on faces like before.
Deprived of cars, the road looks empty,
Gone is the hustle and bustle of the city.
I look at them longingly, just after the fight ebbs away.
I look at them again, after a long day.
I look at them longingly, with so much love in my eyes,
But then there’s the enemy, playing as friends in disguise.
I look at them lovingly, just after a long week
After so many days, I take just one peek.
I look at them lovingly, with the saddest smile on my face
Like a girl who ended up in the wrong time and place.
I look at them sadly, not being able to join in
Not being able to tell them what’s within.
I look at them sadly, with a small light of happiness in my eyes
And I look at them, staring, thinking of this world, a lie.
I look at them longingly, only being able to watch.
I look at them longingly; I miss them so much.
I look at them sadly, hearing their shouts in play.
I look at them lovingly, if only they could hear what I say.
I wanna wake up with you beside me And be where I was destined to be: With you With you. I wanna shine bright right where you are, Because your eyes are beautiful like the stars-- I wanna do all this with you Hope it comes true. Come with me, take my hand and we’ll go together, Jump off the brink of time Stay with me, don’t leave me ever; Just stay with me on the line Right on the line, Stay with me, on the line And be mine. I wanna climb the trees you climb And write those words that rhyme. I wanna do it all with you, All with you. I wanna walk on the path you walk And stay right there, listening to you talk. I wanna do all of this with you, All with you, And all for you. These times I will forever treasure All these memories with you and I— I’ll love them without measure, But I wanna wake up right where you are, Even follow you to the stars All for you All with you All of the things we do. I wanna wake up with you beside me And be where I was destined to be With you With you. I wanna shine bright right where you are, Because your eyes are beautiful like the stars- I wanna do all this with you Hope it comes true.