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summer misery

sunlight comes in through an old window,
sparrows sing in the mango trees outside.
although it is a bright day, it’s dark for me-
with unexplainable feelings deep inside.

drawers are open, walls are bare.
summer breeze is hot, secrets float in.
i cry myself to sleep, who cares?
no one, really- they do not know.

drawings and drafts are torn to pieces,
thrown carelessly on the dirty floor.
last night there was love, laughter, and kisses,
but all of that i left behind.

the bed is messy, pillow wet with tears
it still smells of you, sweet and warm.
i have too many secrets, and still more fears
for today and tomorrow, and what is to come.



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longingly

I look at them longingly, just after the fight ebbs away. 
I look at them again, after a long day.
I look at them longingly, with so much love in my eyes,
But then there’s the enemy, playing as friends in disguise.

I look at them lovingly, just after a long week
After so many days, I take just one peek.
I look at them lovingly, with the saddest smile on my face
Like a girl who ended up in the wrong time and place.

I look at them sadly, not being able to join in
Not being able to tell them what’s within.
I look at them sadly, with a small light of happiness in my eyes
And I look at them, staring, thinking of this world, a lie.

I look at them longingly, only being able to watch.
I look at them longingly; I miss them so much.
I look at them sadly, hearing their shouts in play.
I look at them lovingly, if only they could hear what I say.
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changes

Life used to be a world of wonder
A world of mystery, of love and light.
But our dreams have been knocked asunder
And the birds have fallen after their first flight.
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Butterfly

The butterfly follows me, everyday 
Leading me across the path, fluttering their wings. 
Trust me, it says, we will lead the way to happiness. 
I float along, lost in my thoughts, like a butterfly, 
Waving my arms trying to keep up with its swift wings. 
Butterfly, butterfly, slow down and let me follow you home. 
So free, you spend your days in the sun, having fun. 
Walking along the path, I try to keep up. 
Wait, I say, wait for me I want to find myself too, 
I want to know who I am and what I am in this world. 
Butterfly, butterfly, beautiful butterfly, lead me home to you.
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i just can’t

I just can’t 
Take anymore of this nonsense, 
Can’t take anymore of this face 
Expressionless and cruel. 

I just can’t 
Take anymore of this world. 
I’m slowly drowning, 
Turning blue.

Tell me, do you care for me? 
Do you think of me?
Do love me 
Like you used to?

I’m going away 
Far from your lies, 
Far from you 
And your lying face. 

I’m going away 
From this wicked world, 
To find a life of my own, 
To find a place of my own. 

I can’t be
With a someone who doesn’t love me. 
I can’t be with you, 
Or even think of you. 

I just can’t 
Take any more of this world, 
This world full of lies 
This world full of cruelty. 

Because I’m going away 
To a place unknown to myself, 
To a place that I don’t know 
To a place, a place of my own. 

I’m going away 
Far from your cold touch, 
Far from your lies 
And your useless words.  

So goodbye, 
Goodbye dear, 
Goodbye, 
And we’ll meet in darkness once more. 

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Little Box of Misery

Sitting by the window 
Wondering what to do 
And then, so suddenly, I think of you 

All the times that I cried in front of you 
All the times that we spent after stressful school 
All our sweet conversations 
Gone, blown away by the wind 

And so, 

Here I am in this little box of misery 
Here I am, trapped in my own thoughts 
Here I am, wondering what to do 
When I suddenly, so suddenly, I think of you 

Time, I need time. Oh that sweet thing of mine 
Time, I need time. To reclaim the things that are originally mine 

Here I am in my little box of misery 
Here I am, trapped in my mind 
Here I am, wondering what to do 
When I suddenly think of you. 
When I suddenly think of you. 

All the times we spent together, 
All the times we enjoyed, 
All the times of sorrow and pain, 
Will they ever come again?
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day three.

Seems like a year has passed 
Since the day that you left me.
I already knew we wouldn’t last
But in truth, its only day three. 

How can I make this more bearable 
Without you beside me? 
Walking down the hall, 
Why can’t my thoughts let me be?

Leaving this world almost seems easy 
With all the pain in my heart. 
My breathing’s starting to get wheezy 
With the world that sets us apart.  

Won’t you come back to my arms 
And stay there until the end of time? 
Won’t you come here and make my cold heart warm
So I can feel you are mine?

Seems like a year has passed 
Since the day that you left me.
I already knew we wouldn’t last 
But in truth, its only day three. 

My life has become even colder
Without you pullin’ me closer 
Maybe it’s time to say goodbye 
And jump off the edge? 

My life has become empty 
Without you, don’t you see? 
You just left me there to cry
Maybe its time to say goodbye
And jump off the edge of time.
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a g a i n.

Let’s have fun together again 
Like we used to. 
Let’s dream about the world again 
Like we do every single day; 
The branches start to sway 
My heart begins to break. 

Because I found you with someone else 
Locked in an unforgettable embrace; 
You are running faster and faster away 
I am losing this race. 

Let’s sing together again 
Like we used to.
Let’s walk, hand in hand 
Like we used to do. 
But now I’m walking alone 
Singing a sad song. 

Why did this have to happen? 
Let’s just start over again. 
Why does love have to exist?
 You were my only wish. 

Run, run around and shout 
Scream, dance, walk about 
I cry out your name 
Hoping you’d feel the same. 

Can’t we laugh together again 
Like we used to?
Can’t we talk together again 
Like we used to?
Now I’m sitting alone 
Gazing over the rhone. 

Let’s have fun together again 
Like we used to. 
Let’s dream about the world again 
Like we do every single day; 
The branches start to sway 
You already went away.