sunlight comes in through an old window,
sparrows sing in the mango trees outside.
although it is a bright day, it’s dark for me-
with unexplainable feelings deep inside.
drawers are open, walls are bare.
summer breeze is hot, secrets float in.
i cry myself to sleep, who cares?
no one, really- they do not know.
drawings and drafts are torn to pieces,
thrown carelessly on the dirty floor.
last night there was love, laughter, and kisses,
but all of that i left behind.
the bed is messy, pillow wet with tears
it still smells of you, sweet and warm.
i have too many secrets, and still more fears
for today and tomorrow, and what is to come.
if a cat can meow, a meow can cat.
and I don’t know what I’m wondering at.
-Stevie, my sister.
make a wish
at the lunar eclipse.
you will never know
what awaits in the future.
make a wish
at falling stars.
no matter where you are,
you are always more than what you think.
make a wish
if you can, everyday.
maybe you’ll see the people you miss
and say more things you wanted to say.
I told myself so many times not to touch the light
For fear of losing what I had with me.
But when I approached the flame, bright,
I finally saw what I wanted to see.
All my memories faded into the white light
All those unforgettable tales and fights.
They were all gone, and all that was left was you
And I thought, “Where is this going to?”
I told myself not to tell all the things I wanted to say
Because I was scared and I didn’t want to see who I thought I was.
But, as a thought came to me, I told them anyway
And out came the real me, without any fuss.
All my emotions flowed out as words
Words untold for so many years
They flew out of me as birds,
Birds in the form of my unshed tears.
I used to tell myself I couldn’t be who i was in front of them
And that I couldn’t do it anyway.
But here I am, laughing again,
Saying all the things I wanted to say.
No one is walking in the streets anymore
No smiles can be seen on faces like before.
Deprived of cars, the road looks empty,
Gone is the hustle and bustle of the city.
I look at them longingly, just after the fight ebbs away.
I look at them again, after a long day.
I look at them longingly, with so much love in my eyes,
But then there’s the enemy, playing as friends in disguise.
I look at them lovingly, just after a long week
After so many days, I take just one peek.
I look at them lovingly, with the saddest smile on my face
Like a girl who ended up in the wrong time and place.
I look at them sadly, not being able to join in
Not being able to tell them what’s within.
I look at them sadly, with a small light of happiness in my eyes
And I look at them, staring, thinking of this world, a lie.
I look at them longingly, only being able to watch.
I look at them longingly; I miss them so much.
I look at them sadly, hearing their shouts in play.
I look at them lovingly, if only they could hear what I say.
In a dead garden, I sit alone,
Wondering where you had gone.
My heart so lonely, cold as stone,
Falling to the ground, done.
I know that all of this will never change,
It never did.
My life is never gonna be the same,
My joys and treasures hid.
Beside a withered rose I stand
My mind wandering steadily away.
I keep thinking of your hand,
Once around mine everyday.
I feel so broken, so alone,
I can’t take any more.
Only crimson remains on the rose’s stone
Where I had been before.
My books they burn into the night
Casting dark shadows all around.
The fire burns so bright,
Scares away the feisty hound.
I had been here once before,
Thinking silence was my favorite sound.
But now, I see the sadness I have in store,
And I realized that I looked for things I had never found.
Life used to be a world of wonder
A world of mystery, of love and light.
But our dreams have been knocked asunder
And the birds have fallen after their first flight.
I’m scared to feel pain, yet I long for it.
I’m scared to stand up, for fear of falling.
I’m scared to light the candle, for it won’t stay lit.
And I’m scared to answer when the voice is calling.
stand at the zenith and burn
into ashes, placed in an urn.
stand at the pole and freeze
there were never such beautiful eyes as these.
I can't sleep. There's so much I want to do, So much I want to say. But I can't write them down in one go. My eyes dont want to close. I lay awake for an hour, Wondering about the universe, About what I'll do tomorrow. I think about a new song I might write, Only, the lyrics seem to be forced. I'll just turn on the lamp and get my pen. Green and gold is with which I write this. I'll write about crimson robes and knights of chivalry, Or maybe some tragic ends for some lovers in a story. Perhaps I'll think of a poem With words so sweet that even I wil cry. Or maybe a haiku, only I don't know how. How about a play, like Shakespeare? But I don't know how to do those things too. Up 'till now I still can't sleep, I can hear my sister's soft breathing And the sound of the clock ticking. Twelve midnight and I'm still awake- Why is this sleeplessness taking over me? Maybe it's just the sweet chocolate bar I had. But, my eyelids slowly begin to droop- This is it! Finally, my busy mind wants to sleep. I lie down on my pillow, and my mind suddenly goes blank. I could sleep after all.
Did I live for a purpose? What am I doing here? Petals are falling from the rose From their mouths a leer. I want to tell them I didn't mean it, That I apologized, But they just don't see it, And the monsters in me rise. I want to show them I'm nice, That I'm worthy, sweet, and honest. But it's just me they despise, So I feel like a bird out of it's nest.
“How much you’ve grown!” my family would say, “How tall you have become!”
Then I would say, “I do not think so, I have so much work to be done.”
“Have you improved in mathematics?” they’d inquire, ruffling my thick hair.
I’d cower in embarrassment and reply, “Yes, maybe no, perhaps I’m almost there.”
“How is you mother? Is she well?” is one of my aunts’ query.
Then I would pause to think and say, “Oh, she is fine, I am sure; she is always merry.”
Then they would catch up on what had happened lately in their lives,
While my parents talk about incidents at home, and laugh about growing chives.
Meanwhile, I sit in a corner and draw, not having much to do,
And then suddenly, my body shivers: I need to go to the loo.
After walking out the bathroom, I bump into a nearby wall,
Then my older cousin would say, “When that happens to the baby, she bawls.”
We would laugh, arm in arm, not minding grown-ups' business,
Then go out in the garden where my uncles are, lighting the grill with matches.
Then, hours later, we have to go home— its getting fairly dim,
And the sun sinks, deep orange in the low light, right below the sky’s rim.
Hello everyone! Lately, we haven’t seen our families, or have family reunions. The best thing we can do now is to remember fond memories of these family reunions, or call them. So, feeling down lately? Miss so much people aside from family? Call them up! It’ll make their day, as yours too. Stay safe, ya’ll!
Why did you lie to me? You could’ve told me the truth About you and her. So here I am, my cheeks stained with salty tears Just because of a simple lie. But this lie was the worst I had encountered. It was the lie of you and another. You should’ve told me, Told me about her. I wouldn’t have minded Because the truth was you wanted her And not me, Even though I loved you with all my heart I loved you with all my soul, And I wanted to spend my life with you. But the truth was you weren’t real-- Your love was fake, You were one big mistake. Go away, leave me here— I was better off without you Shut your mouth, it’s filthy, Full of lies that break hearts.
I wanna wake up with you beside me And be where I was destined to be: With you With you. I wanna shine bright right where you are, Because your eyes are beautiful like the stars-- I wanna do all this with you Hope it comes true. Come with me, take my hand and we’ll go together, Jump off the brink of time Stay with me, don’t leave me ever; Just stay with me on the line Right on the line, Stay with me, on the line And be mine. I wanna climb the trees you climb And write those words that rhyme. I wanna do it all with you, All with you. I wanna walk on the path you walk And stay right there, listening to you talk. I wanna do all of this with you, All with you, And all for you. These times I will forever treasure All these memories with you and I— I’ll love them without measure, But I wanna wake up right where you are, Even follow you to the stars All for you All with you All of the things we do. I wanna wake up with you beside me And be where I was destined to be With you With you. I wanna shine bright right where you are, Because your eyes are beautiful like the stars- I wanna do all this with you Hope it comes true.
I just can’t Take anymore of this nonsense, Can’t take anymore of this face Expressionless and cruel. I just can’t Take anymore of this world. I’m slowly drowning, Turning blue. Tell me, do you care for me? Do you think of me? Do love me Like you used to? I’m going away Far from your lies, Far from you And your lying face. I’m going away From this wicked world, To find a life of my own, To find a place of my own. I can’t be With a someone who doesn’t love me. I can’t be with you, Or even think of you. I just can’t Take any more of this world, This world full of lies This world full of cruelty. Because I’m going away To a place unknown to myself, To a place that I don’t know To a place, a place of my own. I’m going away Far from your cold touch, Far from your lies And your useless words. So goodbye, Goodbye dear, Goodbye, And we’ll meet in darkness once more.
Sitting by the window Wondering what to do And then, so suddenly, I think of you All the times that I cried in front of you All the times that we spent after stressful school All our sweet conversations Gone, blown away by the wind And so, Here I am in this little box of misery Here I am, trapped in my own thoughts Here I am, wondering what to do When I suddenly, so suddenly, I think of you Time, I need time. Oh that sweet thing of mine Time, I need time. To reclaim the things that are originally mine Here I am in my little box of misery Here I am, trapped in my mind Here I am, wondering what to do When I suddenly think of you. When I suddenly think of you. All the times we spent together, All the times we enjoyed, All the times of sorrow and pain, Will they ever come again?
Seems like a year has passed Since the day that you left me. I already knew we wouldn’t last But in truth, its only day three. How can I make this more bearable Without you beside me? Walking down the hall, Why can’t my thoughts let me be? Leaving this world almost seems easy With all the pain in my heart. My breathing’s starting to get wheezy With the world that sets us apart. Won’t you come back to my arms And stay there until the end of time? Won’t you come here and make my cold heart warm So I can feel you are mine? Seems like a year has passed Since the day that you left me. I already knew we wouldn’t last But in truth, its only day three. My life has become even colder Without you pullin’ me closer Maybe it’s time to say goodbye And jump off the edge? My life has become empty Without you, don’t you see? You just left me there to cry Maybe its time to say goodbye And jump off the edge of time.
Let’s have fun together again Like we used to. Let’s dream about the world again Like we do every single day; The branches start to sway My heart begins to break. Because I found you with someone else Locked in an unforgettable embrace; You are running faster and faster away I am losing this race. Let’s sing together again Like we used to. Let’s walk, hand in hand Like we used to do. But now I’m walking alone Singing a sad song. Why did this have to happen? Let’s just start over again. Why does love have to exist? You were my only wish. Run, run around and shout Scream, dance, walk about I cry out your name Hoping you’d feel the same. Can’t we laugh together again Like we used to? Can’t we talk together again Like we used to? Now I’m sitting alone Gazing over the rhone. Let’s have fun together again Like we used to. Let’s dream about the world again Like we do every single day; The branches start to sway You already went away.
By: Luna Nuñez
Some things must change
Some things don’t need to
But love cannot
Nor will it ever need to.
Some things stay the same
Like the way you look at me everyday,
But some hope remains.
Some things always change
Like the faces of people as they pass
They tell you their heart’s feelings
But mine is already broken glass.
Some things really can change
The way people are to each other,
Cruel, loving, kind
But I don’t think you’d ever mind.
That’s the way the world is.
Ever changing or not
But there really is hope, says some
Even if there’s not.
But it is true
That some things change
And I really hope that some of them
Would include you and me.
This is my song. Well, its not a song, its a poem; but here it is. ©️Ysabel_Luna_52