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poems Thoughts

joy gone

In a dead garden, I sit alone,
Wondering where you had gone.
My heart so lonely, cold as stone,
Falling to the ground, done.
I know that all of this will never change,
It never did.
My life is never gonna be the same,
My joys and treasures hid.

Beside a withered rose I stand
My mind wandering steadily away.
I keep thinking of your hand,
Once around mine everyday.
I feel so broken, so alone,
I can’t take any more.
Only crimson remains on the rose’s stone
Where I had been before.

My books they burn into the night
Casting dark shadows all around.
The fire burns so bright,
Scares away the feisty hound.
I had been here once before,
Thinking silence was my favorite sound.
But now, I see the sadness I have in store,
And I realized that I looked for things I had never found.

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poems Thoughts

voices

I’m scared to feel pain, yet I long for it. 
I’m scared to stand up, for fear of falling.
I’m scared to light the candle, for it won’t stay lit.
And I’m scared to answer when the voice is calling.
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songs Thoughts

pretty creature

coffee fills the air outside 
breakfast dishes and sunlight
furry being gonna hide
quiet mind where hurts abide

soft pillow wet with tears
blank features yet so many fears
everything distant seems far away
moonlight outshone the day

this silence is not the same one i used to hear
the air is hung with so many tears

pretty creature please dont go
where there was summer there is snow
pretty creature dont go away
where there was night there is day

please dont leave
please dont leave
please dont leave me here

white dress stained with chocolate
i dont wanna cry yet
everything reminds me of you
can lies be really true?

flowers wilting by the windowsill
daffodils grow by the water mill
its all so blindingly bright
this new sunlight

pretty creature please dont go
where there was summer there is snow
pretty creature dont go away
where there was night there is day

please dont leave
please dont leave
please dont leave me here

gone, gone with the wind
love, love’s all pretend
gone, gone so fast
nothing ever lasts

pretty creature, is love real
pretty creature, do you feel
pretty creature will you go
just like the melting snow?

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i just can’t

I just can’t 
Take anymore of this nonsense, 
Can’t take anymore of this face 
Expressionless and cruel. 

I just can’t 
Take anymore of this world. 
I’m slowly drowning, 
Turning blue.

Tell me, do you care for me? 
Do you think of me?
Do love me 
Like you used to?

I’m going away 
Far from your lies, 
Far from you 
And your lying face. 

I’m going away 
From this wicked world, 
To find a life of my own, 
To find a place of my own. 

I can’t be
With a someone who doesn’t love me. 
I can’t be with you, 
Or even think of you. 

I just can’t 
Take any more of this world, 
This world full of lies 
This world full of cruelty. 

Because I’m going away 
To a place unknown to myself, 
To a place that I don’t know 
To a place, a place of my own. 

I’m going away 
Far from your cold touch, 
Far from your lies 
And your useless words.  

So goodbye, 
Goodbye dear, 
Goodbye, 
And we’ll meet in darkness once more.