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summer misery

sunlight comes in through an old window,
sparrows sing in the mango trees outside.
although it is a bright day, it’s dark for me-
with unexplainable feelings deep inside.

drawers are open, walls are bare.
summer breeze is hot, secrets float in.
i cry myself to sleep, who cares?
no one, really- they do not know.

drawings and drafts are torn to pieces,
thrown carelessly on the dirty floor.
last night there was love, laughter, and kisses,
but all of that i left behind.

the bed is messy, pillow wet with tears
it still smells of you, sweet and warm.
i have too many secrets, and still more fears
for today and tomorrow, and what is to come.



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longingly

I look at them longingly, just after the fight ebbs away. 
I look at them again, after a long day.
I look at them longingly, with so much love in my eyes,
But then there’s the enemy, playing as friends in disguise.

I look at them lovingly, just after a long week
After so many days, I take just one peek.
I look at them lovingly, with the saddest smile on my face
Like a girl who ended up in the wrong time and place.

I look at them sadly, not being able to join in
Not being able to tell them what’s within.
I look at them sadly, with a small light of happiness in my eyes
And I look at them, staring, thinking of this world, a lie.

I look at them longingly, only being able to watch.
I look at them longingly; I miss them so much.
I look at them sadly, hearing their shouts in play.
I look at them lovingly, if only they could hear what I say.
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joy gone

In a dead garden, I sit alone,
Wondering where you had gone.
My heart so lonely, cold as stone,
Falling to the ground, done.
I know that all of this will never change,
It never did.
My life is never gonna be the same,
My joys and treasures hid.

Beside a withered rose I stand
My mind wandering steadily away.
I keep thinking of your hand,
Once around mine everyday.
I feel so broken, so alone,
I can’t take any more.
Only crimson remains on the rose’s stone
Where I had been before.

My books they burn into the night
Casting dark shadows all around.
The fire burns so bright,
Scares away the feisty hound.
I had been here once before,
Thinking silence was my favorite sound.
But now, I see the sadness I have in store,
And I realized that I looked for things I had never found.

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day three.

Seems like a year has passed 
Since the day that you left me.
I already knew we wouldn’t last
But in truth, its only day three. 

How can I make this more bearable 
Without you beside me? 
Walking down the hall, 
Why can’t my thoughts let me be?

Leaving this world almost seems easy 
With all the pain in my heart. 
My breathing’s starting to get wheezy 
With the world that sets us apart.  

Won’t you come back to my arms 
And stay there until the end of time? 
Won’t you come here and make my cold heart warm
So I can feel you are mine?

Seems like a year has passed 
Since the day that you left me.
I already knew we wouldn’t last 
But in truth, its only day three. 

My life has become even colder
Without you pullin’ me closer 
Maybe it’s time to say goodbye 
And jump off the edge? 

My life has become empty 
Without you, don’t you see? 
You just left me there to cry
Maybe its time to say goodbye
And jump off the edge of time.